As in...I haven't been blogging.
It's just that, well, um.....OK, I have no valid excuses.
Other than this - I've been busy and life has been crazy and quite frankly I haven't had much to say.
I think I'm in a bit of a funk.
I watched 'Alice in Wonderland' again tonight (no, not the cartoon...this time...the Tim Burton version).
My favorite line is this - "you have lost your muchness".
I can relate to that.
I used to be much more muchier.
I think I may have lost some of my muchness.
And I haven't found it.
I've been in a bit of a slump the last few weeks.
The job is not what I thought it would be. I'm not excited about it. (The fact that it is now a part-time job rather than the full-time job it was supposed to be is just the tip of the iceberg).
Also, I'm dealing with a strained neck.
(You will love this story.)
I fell at
Since then, I've been dealing with serious neck pain...so five weeks after I fell, I decided to go see the doctor.
Diagnosis: Strained neck.
I'm now taking muscle relaxers and doing neck exercises so I can avoid physical therapy.
But if you've never had neck pain before, let me tell you ... it is horrid. Sitting at a computer all day, 3 days a week is so painful. I am hoping I heal soon.
Let's add this up:
Job that doesn't make the grade + unhappy kids + neck pain = stressed out mommy looking for her muchness.
Yep. Majorly funky here. And not in a good way.
So...when I'm in a funk, my writing suffers.
And when my writing suffers, this blog suffers.
And that makes me unhappy.
And there it is...in a nutshell.
Life is a bit crazy and messy right now.
I have great friends who are helping me keep my chin up.
(Thank you to JL for reminding me that this year is MY year!)
And, I am still hoping to find my dream job.
When I do, I think I will once again find my "muchness".
Until then....I'm going to 'just keep swimming....'