So now what?
Scores came in the mail today. Not my best showing ever, obvioulsy. Best MBE score I've ever had (that's a multiple choice score for you non-bar-takers). And yet, I had two essays that were scored a "1". Yep, that's right. A ONE. So basically the examiners thought I didn't even show up for those two questions. Funny, I remember answering them.
And so now I have to figure out what's next. I really want to be a lawyer -- that's why I spent three years of my life in law school. I could've done something else with my time - like be gainfully employed. But I chose to further my education. And I got a nice J.D. out of it -- a degree that is essentially worthless unless it's attached to that state law license.
But, in order to get to the license I'd have to take the bar exam yet again. And I don't know that I can do that (or if I want to do that).
I hate quitting, it's just not in me.
But I also don't see the point in beating a dead horse. And I'm wondering if that's what this has all become.
Do I want to spend the next 2 1/2 months studying all the time, missing out on more time with my family - only to risk yet another possible devastating result in November? Or, do I quit now and forever be known as the one who went to law school and failed to ever become a lawyer?
Really, what do you do when the career path you want to choose is continually filled with roadblocks and failures? How do you give up on something you've worked so hard and so long for?
The whole situation just really sucks.