The End

My office has been cleaned out.

The walls are bare.

My coffee cups and paperweights are sitting in a box at home.

I have one last project to finish.

And then, at 2:30 p.m. tomorrow I will be unemployed.

I have this sick feeling in the pit of my stomach about the entire situation.

It completely sucks.

I love my job.

Two years ago this week I received a phone call telling me that I was going to be the chosen candidate for this job. On July 16, 2007 I got the official offer. And now, two years later I am cleaning out my office and being forced out of a job I love because of budget cuts.

And it totally sucks.

Sure I've known since January that I wasn't going to have a job as of June 30th....but that doesn't make it any easier. Actually, it made it a whole lot worse. The past 6 months have pretty much sucked here at the office -- it's really difficult to come to work every day, knowing that you won't be here after a certain date. It's hard to stay positive and keep a smile on your face when in reality you really want to say, "Hey, eff you!"

But I remained positive. I smiled. I did my work. I didn't complain. And it didn't make a damn bit of difference.

I still don't have a job after tomorrow, despite several people trying EVERYTHING in their power to save my job.

And so, Wednesday morning I will be filing for unemployment (for the 2nd time in my professional life).

And it sucks.


  1. Wow. Such a hard day.

    That does suck and I'm sorry that you are going through this.

    Good for you for sticking with it and doing a good job until the end.

  2. Yes, it does suck. I am sorry this is happening to you. You can take a little bit of comfort in knowing that you are NOT alone, it's nothing you personally did.

    I am working at a sinking ship right now--I know my time is coming.

    It really sucks because hubby JUST got back to work at a place where e is making HALF of what he used to, our savings is GONE and We cannot make it if I have to go on unemployment alone. I'm crapping myself, knowing it's inevitable.

    And Unless I am interested inEnlisting in our armed forces, Monster has nothing to offer either. (Do you know they are taking people up to 42 years old? Jeez!!!)

  3. That absolutely does blow. I'm sorry to hear that, truly.

  4. I'm so sorry that you are going through this situation. I have never myself been through this, but I watched as my sister did. I know how difficult it can be, so I wish you the best! Keep your head up and your eyes open!

  5. sentiments from a stranger via blog really fall short, but, i'm sorry. i hope that this situation means that something great is around the corner. i admire you for not saying "eff you" and smiling and doing your job. not many people would do that.

  6. thanks for all the kind words. :)

    i'm trying to remain positive and keep thinking something better is right around the corner.

    @ trophy life...if you're reading my blog and commenting, i don't consider you a stranger. :) thanks again!

  7. I have been thinking about you and I am sorry the day is finally here. I will be praying that you are able to find something very soon. Keep your head up.

  8. Ugh, that is TOUGH. I'm sorry, TLC. Please accept my hug through your blog.

    I will be wishing and hoping that just the right opportunity that is IDEAL for you WILL show up.

    Until then - love and hug those adorable girls of yours. I have a feeling they can lift your spirits.