One of Those Weeks

I'm going to preface this post with an apology - I'm sorry all I'm writing about is my venting about life but right now that's what I've got and if you don't want to read it, move on. That's all.

I am having a week.
As in I'd like this week to be over because maybe next week will be better.

I can't even pinpoint when my week went to shit
I have been feeling "off" all week.
I'm irritable.
I'm cranky.
(Yes, some of it WAS PMS but whatever).

I can't concentrate.
Today it sort of all bubbled to the surface.
I was doing a good job of keeping this craptastic week on the down low but not today.

My focus was for crap.
I went to the grocery store without a list.
EVERYTHING hurts today.
Like everything.
My shoulders, my elbows, my collarbones, my hips, my back, my knees. And everything in between.
Oh and I just took a shower so I could cry my eyes out.
Because I've also been on the verge of tears all fucking day too.

Did I mention that I'm a damn train wreck today?

On top of my health ridiculousness (because honestly, that's what fibro is... it IS ridiculous), Olivia is once again dealing with a health issue that NO almost-13-year-old should deal with. And so that is stressing me out which in turns leads to this mini-flare that I've been dealing with all week.

And quite frankly I'm just done with people. Like there are 7.5 billion people in the world and right now I can tolerate maybe a baker's dozen of said people (JK. Sort of. Maybe 2 dozen). Honestly at this point I think I'd be better off living on a deserted island that had WiFi and a Starbucks because I literally can't even right now.

So there you have it. I feel like crap (again). I am done adulting for the week and it's only Thursday.

And now I'm going to do enjoy a cup of tea because I gave up eating at night so I can lose weight and I'd really rather have a big f*cking bowl of ice cream but NO I'll sip on vanilla tea instead.

Namaste.

Hotter than H-E-double hockey sticks

It's hot today.
Crazy. Stupid. HOT.

I only know this from watching the news and the Weather Channel during dinner. I haven't actually set foot outside today - I was working all day. Inside my air conditioned home office. Although, I did make the mistake of opening the sliding glass door at one point this afternoon and was immediately hit by a wall of sticky hot air.

That mistake was not repeated.

I'm sending my husband to Cold Stone very soon for ice cream...and hoping it doesn't melt before he gets home.

I swear I'll never complain about the cold ever, ever again.
Just make this heatwave go away.

[insert loud sigh here]

Yeah. This blog post has no title.
Apparently I wasn't feeling very creative tonight.
(insert laugh track here)

Ever have one of "those" days that just seems to keep on going and going, just like that annoying pink bunny? Yeah, that's my week so far. And it's ONLY Tuesday.

At this point I'd like to just eat an entire pint of Ben & Jerry's "Chubby Hubby" and watch trashy reality TV for hours. While wrapped up in a Snuggie. Surrounded by past issues of US Weekly. Then, just maybe, my week would seem better.

There isn't just one thing that has made the week craptastic so far.

It's a lot of little things.Things I am not going to elaborate on, but all these little annoyances just built up and then one more thing happened tonight, and at about 7 p.m. I was sitting at my computer crying, talking to a friend via direct message on Twitter.

Seriously.
Crying.
What the hell.

It isn't like it was the end of the world.
And...I do have PMS so just about anything makes me cry this week.

But you know where there's just ONE THING you really, really want (cue the Spice Girls!) and then you don't get it? Yeah. Tonight was a lot like that. There was just one thing I hoped for (no,this time it isn't about a job) and it didn't happen. And yeah, I'm pretty bummed out about it.

You know what though? I'm in damn good company ... there's a whole LIST of people who are pretty bummed out right now for the same reason that I'm bummed out. And well, crap happens and sometimes there's no rhyme or reason. It just happens. I'll just pick myself up. Dust myself off. And move on.

Right after I finish watching "Kourtney and Kim Krochet in Kazakhstan."

Friday's word - Thankful

This has been one heck of a week.
And not in a good way.
Just read the last few posts and you'll understand what I'm talking about.
It was a DOOZY.

So today, I am thankful that it is Friday.

I'm thankful that I get to spend the next two days with my husband and my daughters, just being a family.
No work drama.
No work stress.
No rushing around to fit everything in before bedtime.

Thankful for some "down" time.

I'm also thankful that my husband understands me so well.

He knows - without asking - that the best way to make this whole week disappear is to say to me "So, what do you want from Cold Stone? I'm going right now."

I love that man of mine.


(As a side note: you know how the more you write a word, the stranger it looks and then finally you think "I must be spelling it wrong because those letters just don't seem to go together?" Yeah. That just happened to me as I wrote this post. Did that ever happen to you? What? No? Am I crazy?)